I feel lost,
like I’m falling apart –
and nothing’s holding me
besides my urgent will
to keep on fighting
The sky is blue –
my inside is black,
the sun is shining –
my inside is hurting
My skin is warm
because of the sun –
inside I’m freezing
like it’s the coldest winter
of all time
I am a fighter,
I’ve always been –
and I won’t change,
but it’s not easy
It was never easy to not fall apart
and keep all my thoughts inside
because I don’t want to bother anyone,
but on some days
it just hurts too much
to still keep it all inside,
to not talk about my feelings
and how lost I am
regarding my life
It’s not easy to remain silent
when the urge to scream is so huge,
but there’s no possibility to let it all out
Life isn’t easy,
it hasn’t been ever –
I can’t wait for the day
on which I at least feel
a little less lost
than I do
right
now